i’ve never been more happy for a monday holiday.
& it’s time for monday confessions.
[one] i kind of wanted to cry last night when dale jr. ran out of gas on the last lap, in turn 4, while winning the coca cola 600. i mean really. bad things just keep happening to him 😦 & i feel like he deserves a win with his new perspective & attitude this year.
[two] some crazy showed me a picture of his car at the race. i guess trying to impress me? well it didn’t. & the funny thing was it was a real picture, not on his phone or anything. i mean who carries a real picture of their CAR around?
[three] i LOVE LOVE LOVE how patriotic nascar still is.
[four] i’ve never seen a flyover as amazing as the one at the race last night. that stealth bomber was insanely cool & creepily quiet at the same time.
[five] i just love nascar.
i’m a little jealous of pippa’s wardrobe.
love that two-toned dress.
last week i was wayyyy too busy for thankful thursday.
[one] i’m thankful for band-aids to cover up my huge blister on my foot so i don’t feel like screaming all the time.
[two] i’m thankful for my sweet grandparents who kept annie girl last weekend when i went to florida.
[three] things that make me laugh (reference the picture below).
[four] i’m thankful for being busy. it’s tiring but i like it better than not being busy, helps keep my mind occupied.
[five] i’m thankful for my dad who is taking my car to be serviced for me because i HATE doing it myself.
been a little mia lately.
it’s busy around here these days with my internship, work at school, school & everything else going on.
but being busy is good for me, especially right now.
i managed to squeeze in 5 miles yesterday but in the process i rubbed a blister on the arch of my foot (yeah, didn’t know that was possible) that’s almost 2 inches long.
wearing shoes hurts so bad right now 😦
i want to go to the beach sooooo bad right now!
but i’m off to my internship, then school.
& tonight i’m meeting corrine to see pat green at speedstreets 🙂
maybe my interpretation is completely skewed.
maybe i went about that whole thing wrong?
maybe i shouldn’t have “agreed” to breaking up because i was trying to do what was best for the other person, not myself.
maybe i should have fought from the beginning.
maybe i shouldn’t have been so naive to think nothing would change when the other person moved 4 hours away.
maybe i shouldn’t have counted on them so much.
maybe i should have lived my life more instead of trying to make them happy.
maybe i should have demanded a little more respect.
maybe i should have done a lot of things.
but i didn’t.
& i’ve let someone completely play games with my emotions, time after time after time.
i wasn’t born yesterday.
but i fall for it each time.
so i cried (yeah, i wrote that, it’s out there, i haven’t let myself cry over this in forever, but i did).
& i’m writing this post so i remember not to be so dumb in the future.
& i’m figuring out how to meet ian somerhalder because i want to marry him.
& i’m picking everything back up & keeping busy.
because that’s what i do.
& hey, the past is just practice, right?
[one] i’ve turned the guest bedroom into my closet.
[two] i’m not sure i rested for more than 5 minutes this past weekend.
[three] i’m in love with my new sam edelman sandals.
[four] although i’m going to be super busy & running around for the next few months, i’d rather be busy than not.
[five] i might just have to give in & drink coffee during the week again.