there is a faith proved of more worth than gold
i woke up at 7 this morning.
laying there i thought, why am i awake?
after being on the go for the past 48 hours i shouldn’t be awake, i should be tired, & sleeping, & struggling to wake up a few hours later to get ready for work.
that wasn’t the case.
at 7:15 i decided to just get up, woke annie up, took her out, fed her, & made a cup of coffee.
watching annie eat her breakfast i was still thinking “why am i not sleeping? i don’t remember the last day i really slept in.”
i thought about all i’d done in the past few days, spending friday with my grandparents & aunt, cleaning up & organizing saturday, volunteering sunday at church & hearing a wonderful message from christine caine, driving the the coast, watching mafia movies & eating pasta, going to the aquarium & napping on a lazy monday afternoon.
i remembered seeing a book on sarah’s coffee table.
i have it too.
but i’d been “so busy” i hadn’t read it.
maybe this was why i was awake when i really shouldn’t have been.
i settled annie down with a chew toy & pulled out my copy of sun stand still & began to read.
i became angry with myself that it had taken me so long to open this book. i should have done it 5 months ago when i got my copy. but now, a few chapters in i realize being angry with myself is ridiculous, it’s done & it’s over.
this morning i started my day with this quote from pastor steven’s book echoing in my mind, “if you’re not daring to believe God for the impossible, you’re sleeping through some of the best parts of your Christian life” (sun stand still, page 6).
i’ve been asleep for so long now & i didn’t even realize it.